Saturday, March 27, 2010

Thought for today

"Prayer requires that we stand in God's presence with open hands, naked and vulnerable, proclaiming to ourselves and to others that without God we can do nothing. This is difficult in a climate where the predominant counsel is, "Do your best and God will do the rest." When life is divided into "our best" and "God's rest," we have turned prayer into a last resort to be used only when all our own resources are depleted. Then even the Lord has become the victim of our impatience. Discipleship does not mean to use God when we can no longer function ourselves. On the contrary, it means to recognize that we can do nothing at all, but that God can do everything through us."
~Henri Nouwen (emphasis added)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

The Simple Woman's Daybook: Feast of the Annunciation

I see this thing everywhere (original source) and figured I might as well try it as a way of getting more of my daily life down here.

Outside my window...
The slanting gray roof of Kolbe/Clare hall is gleaming in the rain.

I am thinking...
I love rain. :)

I am thankful for...
The sacrament of Confession, and people who love me anyway.

I am wearing...
Black skirt, white tank top (yay modesty!), greeny-blue blouse. I love spring because I get to wear all my pretty blouses again.

I am creating...
A blog post? Seriously, though, one of my other windows is my latest novel.

I am going...
to get back to studying for that history test pretty soon.

I am reading...
Well, I just bought a book called Lent and Easter: Wisdom from Henri J. M. Nouwen. I read one meditation. (It was lovely.)

I am hoping...
that I don't forget that God is my everything.

I am hearing...
my computer humming softly to itself.

Around the house dorm room...
Lots of shoes. I don't really have anywhere to put them; this semester I have a couple of large plastic tubs in my closet where my shoes normally go.

One of my favorite things...
Rain. :)

A few plans for the rest of the week...
Studying my brains out for the aforementioned history test. Writing the second half of my history paper. Remembering that God is my everything.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Too tired for a real post

So you get quotes instead, both from Bilbo Baggins.

I feel thin — sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread. I need a holiday — a very long holiday.

I want to see mountains again, mountains, Gandalf! And then find somewhere quiet where I can finish my book.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

The thing about Christians is that we refuse to stay dead*

So, dear readers, I could blame my recent lack of posting on midterms, and maybe that had something to do with it, but it wasn't the main reason. The main reason was that I've been decidedly blue. Life is hard sometimes, and sometimes I just don't have the emotional or spiritual resources to deal with it--much less deal with it and then come here and compose something vaguely readable.

Then God spent basically all day Friday and Saturday of last week--well, wooing me, essentially. There were flowers involved, and what amounted to Him playing me "our song." No chocolate, but then again He knows it's Lent, and good wooers take that sort of thing into account.

I basically felt like I was dead, or dying, for the first few weeks of Lent. And maybe I was. Maybe I died last week, went back to the dust from whence I came.

And then God rained down grace and something inside me woke up and reached for Him...and I think that maybe being small and hard is not a bad thing. Maybe it's just that I'm a seed, and before you know it the tiny homely thing that is my soul will turn into something alive and beautiful.

In short...I am okay with dying, because I don't plan on staying dead.

*Title is a paraphrase of a passage from The Robe by Lloyd Douglas

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

2 weeks down, 4 1/2 to go

You never realize just how much time you spend checking Facebook and reading blogs until you give both up for Lent*. I am editing an Honors paper and so far it's been going like this: Read a comment. Try to get on Facebook and stop myself. Change the essay in accordance with the comment. Try to read a blog and stop myself. Read another comment. Try to get on Facebook...

You'll notice I didn't give up updating my blogs for Lent, though.

*Technically, I gave them up between 8 a.m. and 6 a.m. During the week, I usually have just enough time to catch up on Facebook after breakfast.